I never knew, I was so special to you

What I just know is that I’m there, especially when you’re blue

I thought you just want me

Because you needed me

There are times when I felt so unspecial

It is all because of you

There was a time I needed you

But you are not there, you are with someone else

I kept myself away from you

I closed my heart

I tried to had fun with others

But there’s a part of me wanting you back

I never knew you’ve been lonely since I left you

Because I never knew I was that special to you

But now I came back to cheer you up

With o doubt I am also important to you

Now I know we’re both special to each other.

                -Sha, April2, 1993

My friend, where are you?

Why did you left me in just a simple and easiest way

You know I care for you

And I would never let you go

Caring for me the way you used to do

I could never, never forget you

For without you my friend, I’ll be lonely

And I’ll be missing you…  I do not know what to do

I remember my friend, when you’re near me

Our happiest moment, your sweet caress

But what have you done to me

I thought I would be your happiest and trusted friend

So I will just go on remembering you

Waiting when you will be back again

To me and my friend, till then

That my life with you my friend… will be happy again

                -Sha, 1992-1993

I am neither feeling bad nor sad

I may be peculiar, but I am not a liar

I wanted to be frank but I don’t want to sank

But why do I feel that nobody loves me?

I don’t think they’re jealous of me

And I don’t have a hard face

To bear that in my mind and just make face

 

I hate it when they whisper

Talking like an announcer

I don’t know what is right or wrong

Because they often tell me that I am wrong

I feel they’re all against me

Telling words that hurts me

I am not sick with a contagious disease

But why won’t they give me a chance to be me

Now can you tell me if they see me us somebody?

No I don’t think so because I know they see me as nobody

                -Halli, January 28, 1994 

There are times you need someone to talk to

To talk why you are blue

To have someone to share with

Especially in this very moment

But all your peers are busy for you

And no one is available

That’s the time you feel alone

Alone in the dark where there’s no one to help you

You feel mad but you told yourself “You don’t need any of them”

There are tears in our eyes

But you forced yourself not to cry

You really feel bad and you want to voice out what you feel

But you don’t have strength to do all those things

You don’t want to try because you don’t ant to fail again

Now you feel alone

Alone in the dark

But you see a light that is different from your sight

It is coming closer where you are

And now that you are with that light

You now know that you never had been alone

Because there was always someone beside you

Ready to help you

And he is more than your peers

It is God who changed you and who light up your life…

-Sha, 1992-1993